14Aug

I was looking forward to my dive tomorrow. But I know I cant go because I am still down with flu and for sure I cant equalise in the water. I remember Bao told me to cherish myself as I am alone here. I remember. Actually I planned to go ahead but his mum say dont go dont go, weather cold and you are not totally well yet, dont go dont go, I drive to you to swimming pool better. How can I reject. I even went to buy a new swim suit as I did not bring a set with me this round, forgetful. Initially, I still planned to do it secretly despite she keep saying dont go. But after thinking, I decided to postpone it. As a matter of fact, I will endanger myself if I go ahead with my dive.

This week passed even faster than the previous week. And this whole week, I spend 80% of my work time doing the database for a property. I am really getting amaze with myself. I broke my own record of formulation using Ms Excel, up to 3rows of coding for a single cell. Crazy!!!! but I wrote it myself, and best of all, it works!!! Happy!!!

I am slowly getting used to the lifestyle here, getting used that he isnt around, getting used to have my personal space after 10.30pm. And most importantly, getting used to be alone in a foreign place.

I really need to say that his mum is really nice to me. I was kind of sick for some time and his mum will ask me every morning if I am feeling better. And on Monday, she urge me to see a doctor, so I ask his sister-in-law to help me to make appointment. And his mum offered to drive me over. Honestly, I was touched. I couldnt remember when was the last time my mum waited with me at a clinic, think is more than 15years or longer... I couldnt recall.

** Alone in a faraway land, where sky is clearer. My mood flew together with the wind, dance together with the rain. My heart is lighter and my spirit is free. Though at times I can feel the greyness, but soon I see the ray of hope. Understanding and forgiving is all I can do to make things easier and simpler to handle.