My 2nd weekend 17-18 Oct

This is another happy weekend for me.

Saturday, I feel like go blading and he had already agreed to go with me on friday night. So when he woke up abt 1 + then we are off abt 2+pm. The plan is I Blade, he will cycle. BUT, he doesnt have a bicycle. So what happened is he dropped me off by the bay, (name of the location is called Oriental Bay), then he said he will go and grab a bicycle. He said he will be bk abt 20-30min. So I went blading by myself first, which is not an issue. I finish the blading the whole stretch in abt 20min. And the wind is super cooling, I love it. Moreover it is dry, not humid or will I have sticky feeling at all. hahah.

Some time passed, I hear nothing from him since then, so I txt him asking him whereabout. He called bk abt 5-10min later and we meet up. He came bk with NO BICYCLE. Then I told him, I thought you are getting one? He reply how can see already n get so fast? hmmmm...I mention to him, I thought we are going to do things together, not i just blade alone... He then said nxt time he jog, I blade.

Alright,what can i said right. Afterwhich we went to the shop where there is helicopter ride (This was somethng I want to do actually before returning to SG for the girls wedding but time doesnt allows). We ask for details, and ask for a package with special lunch cater for us at one of the location. For this trip, he included his bro n sis, so there will be 3 couples-6pax. Okie, then I was thinking, is alright but I still hope to spend time alone, just 2 of us. Before I said anything, he ask if I want to go for a ride now, is a 10min ride but it cost NZD95.Then Yipee I am really delighted. But the weather isnt to nice, and is abit rainy, so initially we say we want a ride now but when I walk out of the shop to go take camera from the car, rain got slighty bigger. Then I told him better next time. Is pointless to waste $$ AND view will be affected.So we cancelled it. BUT I AM STILL VERY HAPPY!!!

Then we went supermarket, because I agree to cook dinner tonight.Aactually I am pretty stress because I abit worry that his parent wont like the taste. (actually is he got me into this hot soup, because on friday night, we went eating with his colleague, which I also know, then he suddenly ask me when I want cook for him, then he say tml, then he called home and tell his mum I cooking dnr on sat night, then he pass the phone to me... what can I say??? sigh... On the phone I told his mum that is okie I cook but what if I cook until very not nice or they not use to it, how? Guess what his mum say, she say:" is okie to cook not too nice, we will still finish it, and u can keep trying and practicing". I am actually very touched when she say even not nice will still finish... so nice right?? but anyway back to story.... he went off to work abt 6+pm. Then I start preparing dinner. He said he will be bk by 8pm but I knew he will be late. That night, his mum abt 7pm called and say she wont be back for dnr & his dad say dont wait for him, he go exercise. I suddenly felt lost bcz is like nobody want eat my food...so sad.... haha but I okie de. I still cook anyway but lesser portion lor...3 dishes... n his mum came bk abt 8.30 and my bf still not home... sigh... then his mum called him.... he say he is coming bk.... anyway, he did came bk, we had our dnr abt 8.45pm... then his mum also had some fo the food. I asked for their opinion, they say got 1 dish quite nice. then the fish no taste ( of course, I forgot to add salt.wahahaha, to stress) And my porkchop cutlet if got gravy will be better. I nodded and accepted =).He went to work again shortly after dinner... but his mum very cute, told him off. She say, I so nice to make dinner for him, yet he not on time to come home...so cute.

okie...SUNDAY... Woke up abt 9+..then he very funny. suddenly keep saying himself fat..then he say he want go gym... haha.. he always said that... but never went... BUT THIS TIME... HE DID, and I went with him. We reached there abt 10am. So we work out. Finished abt 11.45am. And we went to changed and meet at 12.15pm. He waited for me outide ( I like to see him wait for me..dont know why) After which we went to buy birthday present for Cory ( his elder sister's son). He got a birthday celebration at his place), so we went to his birthday party, he turned 6..a very handsome boy actually and I like him. He like to call me Jas and not aunty Jasmine, so cute. Anyway, the birthday party is cute with his 10 other little frenz.

After the celebration, we went to the bicycle shop and we bought 2 bicycles. hahaha. crazy right? and is expensive. It cost 500 each... OFF WE WENT... we ride home. For that last few slope towards is house, it almost kill me.and him in a way. Wahahaha. But I am really happy, Because we finally do things together..

After dinner, we had another ride... I will never forget what he said when we are along the way...

My 1st weekend after my 2nd return-10,11Oct

This is written a week later, so I really couldnt remember much. I only recalled that, I now see that he is trying harder to make me believe that he is true...

This time back, time flies... The very 1st weekend sat is the celebration of his grandma birthday. Is a big celebration and alot of his relative fly back from Canada, HongKong, Auckland... My first time to meet so many of them... I couldnt recall who they are but many very touching displayed was show on grandma birthday.

The family is not too big nor small. But I see that grandma is significant to every one of them, even my bf. He told me a very sweet, funny and cheeky things that happened when he was abt 4-5 years old. He didnt want to eat his food, and guess what did grandma tell him. She said:"if you eat one mouth, you will get one dollar." haha...and he opened his mouth and grandma kept her words.... haha... it might sound lifeless when read from here... but when he said that to everyone in the hall, I saw a sentimental side of this big teddy bear... I am really touched...

I got 2 surprises from grandma. On friday, we all had a causual dinner, and I was introduced to her. I told her I am from SG. And my bf told grandma that he will go over her house to take vegetables ( she grow them herself, and rear chickens, rabbits) and eggs. She is 90 this year, sometimes she forgets things easily. And the 2 surprises is, on Sat, when she saw me, she remembers I am from SG and she ask, why didnt my bf come and collect the vegetables. OMG...

I gave her my promise that tomorrow, my bf and me will be there. And we did... She is like what everyone had said, thrify on herself and spend on others... When we are there, she keep asking us to eat, she cant move to freely, but insist of getting food for her precious grandson... I saw her tears... I saw his tears... and my tears too... I am really touched and upset and misses my grandma so much... Grandma told me, my bf is busy so cant visit her often, then she point to the road and teach me how to come here... She wants me to visit her... I nodded... My tears flow... I can see my bf is very upset because it had been years since he really visited her, and now when he see her aged, his heart sunk..because he knows his grandma doted him alot and he isnt too fillial to her.

I make myself a promise, We will visit her once very 2 weeks. I want him to treasure all the time he can with her and live with no regrets. It really matters alot to me... Like the promise I gave to my grandma... I never forgets...

Oh, here is a photo of us at grandma's birthday celebration.

24Aug

Well, I initially planned to write my blog every Friday during my "free" time but I was ask to work...So off I went... For those that know what happen, will know what I am talking about, else, just think I am crazy...

Anyway, is just temporary. This week passed really fast too. Remember I mention previously about a Database I was setting up for a property, now I used only 1 Day to complete another Database for another set of property.... Applause!!!! ahahaha...

Well, I hope I can go diving this saturday, if I am not tired after my Friday night work. Well see how it goes.

As for us, things are getting much better. We are getting used to each other body languages and we knew that time and space is important. He make an effort and so do I. I am no longer that sensitive or emotional. Perhaps is because I see that he is really trying hard too.

I am counting down...3 more weeks then I can return back to SG to witness my 3 kakis wedding. So please book me before hand, else I am really hard to find time...wahhahahh

14Aug

I was looking forward to my dive tomorrow. But I know I cant go because I am still down with flu and for sure I cant equalise in the water. I remember Bao told me to cherish myself as I am alone here. I remember. Actually I planned to go ahead but his mum say dont go dont go, weather cold and you are not totally well yet, dont go dont go, I drive to you to swimming pool better. How can I reject. I even went to buy a new swim suit as I did not bring a set with me this round, forgetful. Initially, I still planned to do it secretly despite she keep saying dont go. But after thinking, I decided to postpone it. As a matter of fact, I will endanger myself if I go ahead with my dive.

This week passed even faster than the previous week. And this whole week, I spend 80% of my work time doing the database for a property. I am really getting amaze with myself. I broke my own record of formulation using Ms Excel, up to 3rows of coding for a single cell. Crazy!!!! but I wrote it myself, and best of all, it works!!! Happy!!!

I am slowly getting used to the lifestyle here, getting used that he isnt around, getting used to have my personal space after 10.30pm. And most importantly, getting used to be alone in a foreign place.

I really need to say that his mum is really nice to me. I was kind of sick for some time and his mum will ask me every morning if I am feeling better. And on Monday, she urge me to see a doctor, so I ask his sister-in-law to help me to make appointment. And his mum offered to drive me over. Honestly, I was touched. I couldnt remember when was the last time my mum waited with me at a clinic, think is more than 15years or longer... I couldnt recall.

** Alone in a faraway land, where sky is clearer. My mood flew together with the wind, dance together with the rain. My heart is lighter and my spirit is free. Though at times I can feel the greyness, but soon I see the ray of hope. Understanding and forgiving is all I can do to make things easier and simpler to handle.

7Aug 2009

This week passed really fast. Perhaps is because I am starting to get used to work. Though I am still picking up new stuff, but now, I am more familiar with the things around. There are still doubts in work and I am thankful that Nik & Steve for being so helpful.

As for "us", well, it isnt too smooth I should say. Time is sarce for us. And me being emotional at times make it worst. he is too busy and i understand and witness why he's so busy. There's no blame or anything. But I just felt that I am not adapting yet. Last wkend is the 1st wkend here and is like my world revolve ard him. Well I m not sure if you all know. I cant take it this way. I need to have my own space and things to do. Not like sitting there waiting to see if he's free for me (n this is tough because he will just say now we go XXX...then XXX without giving me notice). I dislike that feeling. We got into quite alot of quarrels lately because I am EMO. Sigh... but he mentioned he did not blame me at all and understood the transition period. Well, I called bao over the phone on one of the days and chit chat. Amazing oversea chit chat. She understood my situation and knows me. We discussed and concluded that I will need to find my own activities here so I can make new friends and slowly built up my own world.

I wrote down quite a number of stuff I wish to do, which include nature walks and water activities; but not this season for my diving. (These activities were search by bao, i am rally touch, though is an easy search but is the effort she put it in for me, it almost bring me to tears) I was super excitied when I saw they got this F69 diving spot; is a sink ship. maybe will do this when weather is better. Might also will rent a bicycle n roam around or take a bus n roam around, depend how lazy I am. I am also thinking about taking up some lessons. Making of cocktails ( barist, i might be able to do a part time barist, wahahah dreaming), pottery classes which I always want to do but is expensive in SG, not sure about here, need to check it out. Perhaps also might pick up my dancing again. Not sure about these thoughts, shall see how it goes.

When I am rational/logic/clear minded. I got no problem with things here. However, the main problem comes when I become EMO. So another objective is to build a even stronger EQ ( though I got high enough, but I need it higher to overcome even tougher times at here ALONE).

I found my short term goals ( I am someone that need goals, else i dunno where to head onto or place my energy to), I believe I will be fine. Another goal is to make myself prettier. Wahaha, I brought alot of those beauty lotion for face, body, ampoules too. Mask too, last time in SG, no time for it, I now can do it every 2 nights. Sometime mask & sometime ampoules... Then do yoga for some time afterwhich will go ZZZZzzzz......

Actually my mind gets clearer becoz of one single point. not only am I adapting to this whole thing, he is also adapting me into his life and home. Plus not forgeting that his parents too, all need to slowly adapt me into their home & space. When I keep this in mind, I gets better. It had to be all parties working together.

Tell you all something sweet his dad did. Now for lunch I will take yesterday dinner dishes and bring as lunch the following day. Then there is this day's dinner, a piece of fish is left uneaten, his mum ask his dad to eat it, dont leave it half way, as I need to wash plate. His dad comment:" Let her take the fish for lunch tomorrow, is good to eat fish." So is like, he purposely do not finish to fish so I cant bring it for lunch today. When I heard it, is like Ohhhhh, so sweet + pai seh. Then I quickly say, ask him eat it, I got veggie & meat for lunch, is enough. Then he say, fish is gd, fish is gd, eat more fish. You eat so little, cannot, eat more fish. So sweet right! I was touched by this little act. And his dad comment once that I eat so little need to wash so many plate, so "bo hua'', so funny when he said that.Which I reply, cannot like that calculate. aunty cook dinner, I wash, is perfectly fine, and is not alot.... wahahah...

My 1st week of return

My previous trip ended in the least way I hope. Got very sick and couldnt complete my long planned trip. Jo completed for me and told me numerous stories about it. I wish I was part of her memories and she in mind...I miss her badly during my sick days... Low blood pressure, always vomiting. motion sickness, how i wish they left me earlier...

24th July-31July

My blog is starting soon again... I wonder is this the only place where i can pour inner world.

24th July, morning flight, I depart SG and flew here... Getting away SG has always been what I wanted and NZ had always been a place wish to stay longer...

I started my work on monday 27th July and learn alot during this week. Never would I guess that I will understudy Steven. Beside him, Nik is another amazing consultan. I really learn alot from him during this week and reading those boring profile became interesting because of those on-going negoitation and even court cases... Alot of things to pick up along the way... Hope I can pick up faster...

But in my inner world, I felt empty... I still wish to do my backpacking in Saba, do my voluntary work in elephant orphanage... I still wish to complete my south island trip... I want to explore more about myself....

27th – 31st May 2009, Wednesday to Sunday, Auckland-Whitianga-Rotorua-Waitomo-Taupo

27th – 31st May 2009, Wednesday to Sunday, Auckland-Whitianga-Rotorua-Waitomo-Taupo

This will be my 2nd pass with KIWI, Geyserland and lakes. We depart about 7.25am from ACB and start our journey shortly. The Kiwi driver this time is Felicity, a mid age woman which is really humorous. The very first sight-seeing we get to do is Mt Eden at Auckland city itself. From there we could have a great view of the whole Auckland. Sights weren’t bad… see photo. We stop over for lunch at Thames, a small town.

After which before reaching Whitianga, we stop by a place for natural hot water dip at the Hot Water Beach. At there we dig ourselves a “hole” in the sea shore at those hot water spot… it was kind of fun actually…but our hole always got suddenly too hot or suddenly too cold when the wave crashes in. It is really a complicated feeling. At Whitianga, we stayed at a hostel called Turtle Cove. A simple hostel but the dormitory bed were pretty comfortable and the place is really clean. We had our dinner prepared by the owner. Pretty decent dinner...

Day2, we depart to Rotorua. We start off with a bush walk to the Cathedral Cove, an hour and a half walk to and back. We took some crazy photo on the beach… is really funny… you will understand what I meant when you see the photographs.

Oh, and not forgetting those young chaps on our bus suddenly to decide to perform a FULL MONTY for us... A simple 30min walk in a gold mine after we left Cathedral Cove… is really pitch dark inside the tunnel. I can’t even see my 5 fingers… Then we stop over for lunch at Mata Mata. As usual, I had my tomato bread for lunch… these 3days lunch is all garlic bread or tomato and herb bread. Is actually pretty nice…and my last loaf should be lunch for Waitomo stop. I chose Funky Green Lodge as the accommodation instead of Hot Rock Base. Reason being I wish to see those little hostels as compare to develop hostel. Funky Green is pretty awesome. We had our own twin room, all to ourselves. I did not went for the Te Puia because I was really feeling sick and I know I need the rest. Night time I went to a Tamaki Concert. We board a bus called KEA, also known as the walker in Maori’s language. The driver is really funny… we visited the tribe village and also see their performances. Not a bad stage show. The dinner was really great too… we had typical Maori’s food, or what they call the Hangi Food. On the way back, the driver started to ask individual countries to sing a song. So when it comes to Singapore, me and Jo started to sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars. Then there is a song which the driver keeps driving in circles at the round-about. It is really funny and weird… But most importantly, I did have some great fun from the ride.

Day3. We depart 8.40am to Waitomo, a place famous for its caving and glow worms. We started the trip with some random events. I chose the Agrodome show, is actually a farm show where they show many different breeds of sheep, some milking scene and some sheep dogs demo. Is not bad but I was hoping more. Look at those photos… After which we drove up straight to Waitomo.
The afternoon, I had an activity at the caving. I had chosen Black labyrinth, a 3 hours black water rafting. It was AWESOME. Take a lot at our group photos. Photos speak more than a thousand words. I really like it as it wasn’t tedious at all but the water was really cold. The funny thing was I lost 1 shoe, but I don’t remember where I lost it at all. So for about 30minutes, my left foot had only neoprene socks on to keep me warm and the water is about 16oC. Our accommodation for the night is at a place called Kiwi Paka YHA, a 4-beded dormitory no bunk bed. It neatly and tidy and I like it .Our dinner is settle at a pub area where we order BBQ steak and some nice BBQ potatoes, sausage and vegetables salad too. A very filling dinner indeed… And not forgetting some entertainment after we return back to the dorm for the night. As our group got some really young boys, so they can be really crazy at times. After their “around the world” challenge ( to finished 12 different mug of beers from 12 different countries), they were basically high and drunk. At about 1am, they suddenly appeared in our dormitory, naked and the “woohoo” out of the room in a couple of second. I was quite pissed then I am not sure how they ended up in our dormitory. Anyway after which, I heard from Heika that they ended up in her room till the next morning. Poor Heika did not get to have a good sleep at all…

Day4 is the day I’ve been waiting. .
As in for the reason, I am not going to say. Haha… we departed Waitomo at about 7.20am, we headed off to Taup.The weather is bad so we could not do our sky dive at Taupo Lake, is pretty upsetting for me. I’ve been waiting to do that for ages. Before reaching our destination, we stop by a lookout for Huka Fall. It is breathtaking too. Perhaps anything that got to do with the sea and water, I would always be blown away. And also there is another bush walk but I just couldn’t remember the name of the bush, I only remember is the exit of the black labyrinth activity yesterday.

However, I did my sky diving the following day.
They pick us up at 9am and we head off to the Sky diving area. We watched 2 dvds and soon after we are geared up. Malachi is my skydive master for the 15000ft package. When the next group returned, we board the little plane. The view overlooking Lake Taupo is amazing, or perhaps I can say is unbelievable. They mentioned that the whole Singapore can fit into Lake Taupo, can you imagine how big Lake Taupo is, or how small Singapore is… Bao is the first to jump off and I was the 3rd. I couldn’t use words to describe what I’ve seen but there is one thing that I find it funny. When I am about 2000ft above ground, I saw some black little things on the ground. I asked Malachi what are those little things, and he replied saying that they were cows. OMG, they really look like little black chickens. Wahaha… Malachi lets me fly the parachute for some times and as my fingers were freezing, he took over again. Oh, from the photos, I am not sure if you can see how much I enjoy it, if I got the spare $$$, I really will sky dive again at Franz Josez. When we finally touch the ground, I was really hopping and jumping. It was too much for words… Enjoys the photos… and there is a video too but not sure if I can post it… Else it can be seen in my facebook too...