Well, I initially planned to write my blog every Friday during my "free" time but I was ask to work...So off I went... For those that know what happen, will know what I am talking about, else, just think I am crazy...
Anyway, is just temporary. This week passed really fast too. Remember I mention previously about a Database I was setting up for a property, now I used only 1 Day to complete another Database for another set of property.... Applause!!!! ahahaha...
Well, I hope I can go diving this saturday, if I am not tired after my Friday night work. Well see how it goes.
As for us, things are getting much better. We are getting used to each other body languages and we knew that time and space is important. He make an effort and so do I. I am no longer that sensitive or emotional. Perhaps is because I see that he is really trying hard too.
I am counting down...3 more weeks then I can return back to SG to witness my 3 kakis wedding. So please book me before hand, else I am really hard to find time...wahhahahh
Monday, August 24, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
14Aug
I was looking forward to my dive tomorrow. But I know I cant go because I am still down with flu and for sure I cant equalise in the water. I remember Bao told me to cherish myself as I am alone here. I remember. Actually I planned to go ahead but his mum say dont go dont go, weather cold and you are not totally well yet, dont go dont go, I drive to you to swimming pool better. How can I reject. I even went to buy a new swim suit as I did not bring a set with me this round, forgetful. Initially, I still planned to do it secretly despite she keep saying dont go. But after thinking, I decided to postpone it. As a matter of fact, I will endanger myself if I go ahead with my dive.
This week passed even faster than the previous week. And this whole week, I spend 80% of my work time doing the database for a property. I am really getting amaze with myself. I broke my own record of formulation using Ms Excel, up to 3rows of coding for a single cell. Crazy!!!! but I wrote it myself, and best of all, it works!!! Happy!!!
I am slowly getting used to the lifestyle here, getting used that he isnt around, getting used to have my personal space after 10.30pm. And most importantly, getting used to be alone in a foreign place.
I really need to say that his mum is really nice to me. I was kind of sick for some time and his mum will ask me every morning if I am feeling better. And on Monday, she urge me to see a doctor, so I ask his sister-in-law to help me to make appointment. And his mum offered to drive me over. Honestly, I was touched. I couldnt remember when was the last time my mum waited with me at a clinic, think is more than 15years or longer... I couldnt recall.
** Alone in a faraway land, where sky is clearer. My mood flew together with the wind, dance together with the rain. My heart is lighter and my spirit is free. Though at times I can feel the greyness, but soon I see the ray of hope. Understanding and forgiving is all I can do to make things easier and simpler to handle.
This week passed even faster than the previous week. And this whole week, I spend 80% of my work time doing the database for a property. I am really getting amaze with myself. I broke my own record of formulation using Ms Excel, up to 3rows of coding for a single cell. Crazy!!!! but I wrote it myself, and best of all, it works!!! Happy!!!
I am slowly getting used to the lifestyle here, getting used that he isnt around, getting used to have my personal space after 10.30pm. And most importantly, getting used to be alone in a foreign place.
I really need to say that his mum is really nice to me. I was kind of sick for some time and his mum will ask me every morning if I am feeling better. And on Monday, she urge me to see a doctor, so I ask his sister-in-law to help me to make appointment. And his mum offered to drive me over. Honestly, I was touched. I couldnt remember when was the last time my mum waited with me at a clinic, think is more than 15years or longer... I couldnt recall.
** Alone in a faraway land, where sky is clearer. My mood flew together with the wind, dance together with the rain. My heart is lighter and my spirit is free. Though at times I can feel the greyness, but soon I see the ray of hope. Understanding and forgiving is all I can do to make things easier and simpler to handle.
Friday, August 7, 2009
7Aug 2009
This week passed really fast. Perhaps is because I am starting to get used to work. Though I am still picking up new stuff, but now, I am more familiar with the things around. There are still doubts in work and I am thankful that Nik & Steve for being so helpful.
As for "us", well, it isnt too smooth I should say. Time is sarce for us. And me being emotional at times make it worst. he is too busy and i understand and witness why he's so busy. There's no blame or anything. But I just felt that I am not adapting yet. Last wkend is the 1st wkend here and is like my world revolve ard him. Well I m not sure if you all know. I cant take it this way. I need to have my own space and things to do. Not like sitting there waiting to see if he's free for me (n this is tough because he will just say now we go XXX...then XXX without giving me notice). I dislike that feeling. We got into quite alot of quarrels lately because I am EMO. Sigh... but he mentioned he did not blame me at all and understood the transition period. Well, I called bao over the phone on one of the days and chit chat. Amazing oversea chit chat. She understood my situation and knows me. We discussed and concluded that I will need to find my own activities here so I can make new friends and slowly built up my own world.
I wrote down quite a number of stuff I wish to do, which include nature walks and water activities; but not this season for my diving. (These activities were search by bao, i am rally touch, though is an easy search but is the effort she put it in for me, it almost bring me to tears) I was super excitied when I saw they got this F69 diving spot; is a sink ship. maybe will do this when weather is better. Might also will rent a bicycle n roam around or take a bus n roam around, depend how lazy I am. I am also thinking about taking up some lessons. Making of cocktails ( barist, i might be able to do a part time barist, wahahah dreaming), pottery classes which I always want to do but is expensive in SG, not sure about here, need to check it out. Perhaps also might pick up my dancing again. Not sure about these thoughts, shall see how it goes.
When I am rational/logic/clear minded. I got no problem with things here. However, the main problem comes when I become EMO. So another objective is to build a even stronger EQ ( though I got high enough, but I need it higher to overcome even tougher times at here ALONE).
I found my short term goals ( I am someone that need goals, else i dunno where to head onto or place my energy to), I believe I will be fine. Another goal is to make myself prettier. Wahaha, I brought alot of those beauty lotion for face, body, ampoules too. Mask too, last time in SG, no time for it, I now can do it every 2 nights. Sometime mask & sometime ampoules... Then do yoga for some time afterwhich will go ZZZZzzzz......
Actually my mind gets clearer becoz of one single point. not only am I adapting to this whole thing, he is also adapting me into his life and home. Plus not forgeting that his parents too, all need to slowly adapt me into their home & space. When I keep this in mind, I gets better. It had to be all parties working together.
Tell you all something sweet his dad did. Now for lunch I will take yesterday dinner dishes and bring as lunch the following day. Then there is this day's dinner, a piece of fish is left uneaten, his mum ask his dad to eat it, dont leave it half way, as I need to wash plate. His dad comment:" Let her take the fish for lunch tomorrow, is good to eat fish." So is like, he purposely do not finish to fish so I cant bring it for lunch today. When I heard it, is like Ohhhhh, so sweet + pai seh. Then I quickly say, ask him eat it, I got veggie & meat for lunch, is enough. Then he say, fish is gd, fish is gd, eat more fish. You eat so little, cannot, eat more fish. So sweet right! I was touched by this little act. And his dad comment once that I eat so little need to wash so many plate, so "bo hua'', so funny when he said that.Which I reply, cannot like that calculate. aunty cook dinner, I wash, is perfectly fine, and is not alot.... wahahah...
As for "us", well, it isnt too smooth I should say. Time is sarce for us. And me being emotional at times make it worst. he is too busy and i understand and witness why he's so busy. There's no blame or anything. But I just felt that I am not adapting yet. Last wkend is the 1st wkend here and is like my world revolve ard him. Well I m not sure if you all know. I cant take it this way. I need to have my own space and things to do. Not like sitting there waiting to see if he's free for me (n this is tough because he will just say now we go XXX...then XXX without giving me notice). I dislike that feeling. We got into quite alot of quarrels lately because I am EMO. Sigh... but he mentioned he did not blame me at all and understood the transition period. Well, I called bao over the phone on one of the days and chit chat. Amazing oversea chit chat. She understood my situation and knows me. We discussed and concluded that I will need to find my own activities here so I can make new friends and slowly built up my own world.
I wrote down quite a number of stuff I wish to do, which include nature walks and water activities; but not this season for my diving. (These activities were search by bao, i am rally touch, though is an easy search but is the effort she put it in for me, it almost bring me to tears) I was super excitied when I saw they got this F69 diving spot; is a sink ship. maybe will do this when weather is better. Might also will rent a bicycle n roam around or take a bus n roam around, depend how lazy I am. I am also thinking about taking up some lessons. Making of cocktails ( barist, i might be able to do a part time barist, wahahah dreaming), pottery classes which I always want to do but is expensive in SG, not sure about here, need to check it out. Perhaps also might pick up my dancing again. Not sure about these thoughts, shall see how it goes.
When I am rational/logic/clear minded. I got no problem with things here. However, the main problem comes when I become EMO. So another objective is to build a even stronger EQ ( though I got high enough, but I need it higher to overcome even tougher times at here ALONE).
I found my short term goals ( I am someone that need goals, else i dunno where to head onto or place my energy to), I believe I will be fine. Another goal is to make myself prettier. Wahaha, I brought alot of those beauty lotion for face, body, ampoules too. Mask too, last time in SG, no time for it, I now can do it every 2 nights. Sometime mask & sometime ampoules... Then do yoga for some time afterwhich will go ZZZZzzzz......
Actually my mind gets clearer becoz of one single point. not only am I adapting to this whole thing, he is also adapting me into his life and home. Plus not forgeting that his parents too, all need to slowly adapt me into their home & space. When I keep this in mind, I gets better. It had to be all parties working together.
Tell you all something sweet his dad did. Now for lunch I will take yesterday dinner dishes and bring as lunch the following day. Then there is this day's dinner, a piece of fish is left uneaten, his mum ask his dad to eat it, dont leave it half way, as I need to wash plate. His dad comment:" Let her take the fish for lunch tomorrow, is good to eat fish." So is like, he purposely do not finish to fish so I cant bring it for lunch today. When I heard it, is like Ohhhhh, so sweet + pai seh. Then I quickly say, ask him eat it, I got veggie & meat for lunch, is enough. Then he say, fish is gd, fish is gd, eat more fish. You eat so little, cannot, eat more fish. So sweet right! I was touched by this little act. And his dad comment once that I eat so little need to wash so many plate, so "bo hua'', so funny when he said that.Which I reply, cannot like that calculate. aunty cook dinner, I wash, is perfectly fine, and is not alot.... wahahah...
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