19th Feb...

Today is the 19th Feb. I reach work place, Napier on the 12th Feb, couldn’t start work till the following Monday which is 16th. Not much had happened across these days actually. At least I couldn’t recall. I only remember we started watch The Little Nyonya shortly we arrived, and daily after work and dinner, the series will automatically pop into our mind…Oh, and that’s how my valentine was passed. With little nyonya on my V’Day.

Been in NZ for about 15days, how time flies. Writing this paragraphs by paragraph is about to make me in tears again… yes, again. Is not about being away from home or having the need to do hard work. Is more of thoughts keep running into my mind. The history… The objects of this trip… The reasons behind my departure…
Well, I have my emotional side and especially during those times or when things happened or things that triggered. I am in a state of confusion but yet awake enough to know that I am confused by what. How about a little short poem as there really isn’t much to write as nothing special happened lately?

Remembering once said from an old friend,
Rain was tears from the heaven.
Remembering once mention by an dear friend,
Tears are not meant to flow for the unworthy ones.
I recall the moment when I cried myself in the rain,
I couldn’t differentiate rain from tears.
Was it rain that was on my face or was it tears that roll down from my eyes?
Let my heart be free for the moments,
I don’t know how much longer I could hold.
I don’t know how much more I could take.
Remembering once said from a sweet friend,
I am not afraid of your tears,
I am worried more of not seeing them.
Let your tears flow as they need,
Let your sorrow be seen as it need..